Have the Lows to Feel the Highs

It is in my nature to help; I like how it makes me feel when I can help... On the flip side I do not like being taken advantage of; I do not like how it makes me feel. We have all become aware of that line when someone comes at you asking for help and ends up taking advantage of your good nature.The the awareness factor sets in.  I don't like getting taken advantage of but I only know that because I have been taken advantage of.  Ahhhh haaaa....... this is awareness.

"When you Peek

at my Soul,

you Piqued my interest.

Then I discoverd

you Picking

my Pocketbook,

and i was Puzzled

and equally Pissed Off."

-Spirita from the book Blossoms n' Bubbles

When someone takes advantage of you, in whatever context, it seems to always start off by an seemingly innocent healthy relationship favor.  At the end of the day I cannot control another, but I can control me.  I get to decided to help or not, be interested or not and even to be mad or not.  It is all about me.  The only variable in my decisions are possible interations with others, but then it is still my choice.  If, like Spirita stated, someone picked my pocet, I could get pissed or not.  I can't look at these emotions of happy, sad, mad, or pissed as good or bad emotions.  They are just that.... emotions.  We all experience them and choose the ones we want to have.  Ahhhh haaaa.... this also is awareness.

I have a choice?  I can have emotions and it is not a bad thing?  I can choose to help or not help?  I can choose to trust or not trust? Self awareness is a funny thing.  I like who I am and even if I have all these questions, I really cant make a "bad" decision because it is life having these emotions.  I am willing to take the risk of getting pickpocketed, because I got a chance to pique my interest.  Sucks that I can get pickpocketed, but I would never know the joy of having someone peek at my soul.